Transcript: The Edges in the Middle, V: Báyò Akómoláfé, Naomi Kleinm, and Yuria Celidwen


Naomi Klein But the climate crisis and the extinction crisis, it has disrupted those cycles of regeneration. Right. So the solace and the stories that tell us that we regenerate, that life comes from the death, that's being interrupted. That's the grief that I find inconsolable.

Yuria Celidwen That grief, as you said, is not [unknown]. Grief is the way to transformation, is the way that we can let go and then be open to the myth, be open to spirit to really flow through, and no matter what the animating principle will flow.

Ayana Young  For The Wild is honored to present the Edges in the Middle, a series of conversations between Bayo Akomolafe and thought companions like john a. powell, V., Naomi Klein, and more. These limited episodes have been adapted from Bayos work as the Global Senior Fellow at UC Berkeley's Othering and Belonging Institute.

In this role Bayo has been holding a series of public conversations on issues of justice and belonging for the Institute's Democracy and Belonging Forum, which connects and resources civic leaders in Europe and the US who are committed to bridging across differences to strengthen democracy and advanced belonging in both regions and around the world. Bayo's conversations encourage us to rethink justice, hope and belonging by sitting amidst the noise not trying to cover it up with pleasant rhythms. To learn more about the Democracy and Belonging Forum, visit democracyandbelongingforum.org.

This recording features Bayo's conversation with celebrated climate activist, Naomi Klein, and indigenous scholar Dr. Yuria Celidwen. Naomi Klein is an award winning journalist, columnist, and international best selling author of eight books including No Logo, The Shock Doctrine, This Changes Everything, and On Fire, which has been translated into over 35 languages. In September 2021, she joined the University of British Columbia as UBC Professor of ClimateJustice, and is also the founding co-director of the UBC Center for Climate Justice.

Yuria Celidwen is a senior fellow at the Othering & Belonging Institute. She's a native of Indigenous Nahua and Maya descent, born into a family of mystics, healers, poets and explorers from the highlands of Chiapas, Mexico. She teaches Indigenous epistemologies and spirituality and her work pioneered the Indigenous contemplative experience within contemplative studies. Together Naomi, Yuria, and Bayo explore climate grief and hope.

Bayo Akomolafe Welcome to everyone joining us from wherever you are in the world. Thank you for being part of these conversations and these explorations in times of crises. This is perhaps the most difficult of the series that I will be taking part in. This one about climate grief and hope is very dear to me. So we're going to have a substantial and spontaneous conversation together with my other sisters today. It's also difficult because I'm at home with my kids alone.

So I would like everyone to know beforehand that if you see my son or my daughter bursting through that door, please acknowledge or celebrate the moment to the extraordinary ordinariness of that moment. But let me start by saying a few things as I usually do about Mbaris. The context of our conversation is such that we are not after some convenient consensus, and Mbaru is an Ibo cosmological tool, a way of thinking about the world, our bodies, and our relationality with truth. If you want to know in depth or with some depth about this idea of conversation, then I would invite you to check out the webpages of the Democracy and Belonging Forum and OBI as well. I think it might be necessary to say that we are not after some final proposal. We are here to gesture together.

In fact, truth is not the final bus stop here. There is no finality that is not already penultimate. The world flows and moves and dances and it's promiscuous so that the whole, I don't want to say essence, the invitation here is to meet each other and be changed by the encounter. It's not even to get it. It's not even to grasp something final, it's to just stay with the trouble of our moving bodies. It's to postpone the myth of the individual long enough to sense other realities. And I think that's a beautiful way of segueing into the context of this conversation, climate grief and hope.

As you might know if you're here, the IPCC report released in March, the sixth iteration, was a story of loss and a story of demise. It seems to be the most powerful modern narrative gripping the heart of civilization. The idea that if we don't get our act together, we might breach that global threshold of a change in degrees of 1.5 degrees Celsius or Celsius degrees. And if we do that, then we would have entered unprecedented times, floods everywhere, ocean acidification, famine, hunger, pain, suffering. I come from those worlds and our conversation here today is to stay with it in a different way.

One symptom of that prognosis, that story, one outcome has been grief. But there's a sense in which our modern story is telling us to get around grief, that we cannot afford to grieve. Let's just get beside it and get to the point which is to provide solutions to this crisis. The reason we're having this conversation is there is a simmering shared mycelial sense in which grief is not in the way. Perhaps grief is the thing to be done now. As the Yorubas in West Africa would say, "When a God passes, the thing to do is to fall down, is to fall to one's knees and not to challenge the weather."

What if grief is the invitation and not the impediment? What if we're being called to do other things with our times, with our bodies, with our senses? This is what we want to do together. So join us. Nothing here is pre-planned. This is going to be playful. I invite you to show up in any way that you want to show up. My sisters, thank you so much for joining us today in this ongoing exploration of possibility and impossibility. I don't know what expertise is in a time of loss. It seems we have to let go of those handles, those holds we have on the normal.

So I thought we could start by, and again, this is not going to be centered around my questions. I thought we could just do something different and just pass along with each other, things that are emerging for us. But my first prompt to get things started is if we can share stories of loss to open us to the energies of this space together. Are there accounts and narratives of loss that are significant to you in this time of metaphysical loss? This is the invitation and any of you could respond and then we take it together. Okay, I'll just pass mic literally to my dear, Sister Yuria.

Yuria Celidwen [Speaking in Mayan Tzeltal language]. This is my Indigenous Mayan Tzeltal language and with it I am honoring my lineage of the Nawal Mayan Tzeltal people of the highlands of Chiapas in Mexico where I was born and raised. My background is precisely that picture of that place of wonderlands, of flowing waters, the land of Quelha which was how our lands were named before they were taken from us. And I speak these languages also in honor of the Quechan Ohlone tribes where I am standing today as I honor also those ancestors.

And also to remind us that these ancestors that I speak about are not only our human lineage, but our ancestors as our Mother Earth, as our Father Sky, about oceans, our corals, our forests, all of these relatives that are guiding our right action today. And that will be also talking about how resilient we can be when the weaving, the web of that network of ancestors, both from the past into the present and also those emerging ancestors that are coming from what will be orienting our action today, our collective action today. We are not these separated beings. We are weaved beings connected into our lands, into our breaths, into all of our relatives, four-legged, wind, myceliated, rooted, finned, all these relatives with whom we shared this planet, our Mother Earth.

But we see that there's so much loss happening today. It's not only the biodiversity loss that we are experiencing, the massive extinction, but the cultural loss that correlates with that biodiversity loss. The Indigenous languages is just one way we can see that this loss is happening, threatening our diverse possibilities for finding solutions together. So speaking my language is a way of bringing that diversity, that cultural array of possibilities together. And I will continue weaving into how loss also can bring meaning today into weaving stories of hope. And I give also our space to our sister, Naomi, that's here as well.

Naomi Klein Well, it's really an honor to be conversation with both of you. And yeah, I appreciate, Bayo, what you said about expertise because I'm certainly not expert in these types of conversations. I'm trained as a journalist, I'm a very fact, fact, fact person, and I've sort of reached the limits of that particular model of, well, if we can just prove it enough. You mentioned the IPCC report, and of course all of us have had relationships with the academy. And the whole premise of the thing is, well, if we can just prove it and we stack up the facts and the proof, if you have robust enough data sets, then the policy will change. So the work that I've been doing at the university has been really trying to work with young scientists who are still in graduate school and probably got into this work because they love the natural world. They're connected. A lot of folks tend to be less socially comfortable and more in their bodies when they are in the natural world. And yet they find themselves kind of acting as undertakers of collecting the data of laws, the evidence of extinction with no outlet, with no acceptable way to feel it. In fact, you're supposed to turn it off. So we've been working on different kind of pedagogical models, which is just a fancy way of saying being in our feelings and reading powerful writing and letting it change us and trying our hand in it.

But you asked to speak to a feeling of loss and an experience of loss, and I want to acknowledge them. I'm speaking... I live in a place that is called in Western European recent history, the quote, unquote, "Sunshine Coast," not very sunny, except for a couple of months of the year. It's mostly rainy, it's a temperate rainforest, but it's been so dry in recent years that we're tipping away from being a rainforest at all. And it's salmon country and it's also a graveyard. It's also a place of genocide. 

And the lands that where I am speaking from are the lands of the Shíshálh people and people tuning in today may remember this very, very shocking to non-Indigenous people news that in the interior of British Columbia, it's few hours from here at the so-called Kamloops Residential School, a couple of years ago, more than 200 unmarked graves of children were found and other nations began a processing of confirming their own stories.

They knew that the grave were there at the height of the former so-called residential schools, I say so-called because their goal was not education. Their goal was extinguishing indigenousness as Yuria was speaking about that tremendous cultural assassination really, attempted. But just 15 minutes from here a week ago, the Shíshálh nation confirmed the presence of 40 children. As they said, these are not remains, these were children. So the loss is very, very heavy in the lands here. And it's also a time of rebirth. It's spring, but it feels so precarious.

Every bird song, every animal sighting, we just don't know what's next because we're part of an ecosystem where the salmon a little bit south of us in California and Oregon are not coming back. And so everybody is wondering what the future holds? My father went fishing two days ago and came back and said, "Not a bite." And it isn't just a bad fishing trip. It's like, what does this mean? I haven't seen a seal in months. I used to see them all the time. What does that mean? I don't know. It could be nothing. It could be back later today. But it's that feeling of being on an ice bench. Feeling that a lot.

Yuria Celidwen I'd like to weave into that, the story that Naomi just brought, how the moments that we face loss and we really embody the grieving process is the total moment of surrendering. Realizing that arrogance that keeps humans in a hierarchical organization feeling that they are somehow exceptional and different from all others. That arrogance dissolves the moment that we realize we are powerless really to the process of life, to the process of spirit, the process of nature.

That idea of bringing not only the possibilities of the mysterious, the possibilities of the stories. That npt everything can be measured as Western science sense, but rather as how Indigenous sciences speaks about what we don't know, what we can't know, and how we can make meaning of precisely that unknowing and resting in that unknowing by finding the right insight to the action that we need to do as a collective.

Naomi Klein I was really struck, Yuria, that you said that grief is surrender because right before I was making a couple of notes thinking about why so many people I know in the climate movement, in the climate justice movement, including, are afraid of grief. And I wrote down just now, it's because they equate grief with surrender. But what I meant was political surrender. That there's a fear that if we really open the door, well, if we fall down, we'll never get up.

And if we let ourselves feel the depths of the loss, the depths of the fear that we'll just somehow never be able to be galvanized again. And it's the opposite really, that grief is uncontainable. Including that surrender. But... I work with the students I mentioned it's not a course on climate anxiety or climate grief. It's a course on climate feelings. And that's the first thing I say is, it can be rage, it can be loss, it can be hope, it can be home sickness.

There's so many emotions and why do we prescribe just this one? But the main thing I want is just feel anything, feel it a lot because I feel like what is the source of the hopelessness or despair, those are legitimate emotions. But it's a deadeningness, really, that is what I'm most afraid of in myself and in the people I work with. It's just not feeling, somehow turning off and losing access to sources of strength and rebound and propulsive force. So yeah, it's anything at all.

Yuria Celidwen Yeah absolutely we know that emotions, especially strong emotions, and maybe we can start moving beyond the duality of positive and negative emotions. They're just emotions. And emotions as we know from recent great research of emotional science for how much these are ways we appraise our behavior and that orient our actions. So we use these emotions as compass, the moral compass, to then create our pathways.

But then again, I return to the need of creating these pathways together. Especially bringing those communities that have not had the platform for being participants in decision making, but whose lives are mostly impacted by the changes that we're seeing right now, by the losses that we're seeing right now. So it's a process of surrendering of the power, of the being in the power of control. That's what I say. Of coming together to finding solutions.

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Bayo Akomolafe I've just came back from Massachusetts and I was with ome persons that had been part of the writing of that report. And I had a conversation with a scientist, a climate scientist who told me or who put to words, something I started to experience around that time. And it's this mask, I don't know how else to describe it except to say it's a mask. A mask of forced hope. Let me put it that way. 

It's like the idea is these persons I was having conversations with, they seem to have this, Naomi, just like you were saying, "I cannot fall. I cannot let this crack become wider. The breach will be too overwhelming."

So I need to say to you all who are not part of that report writing process, that ritual, I need to say that everything will be fine, even though I don't quite believe it myself. But everything will be fine. There's a sense in which hope was becoming a carceral thing. Incarcerating their bodies and blocking them from accessing certain other frameworks of responsivity, of responsibility. 

Is there a sense for both of you that we are going around in circles? Do you have that feeling that we are trapped, we're stuck?

Yuria Celidwen Let me respond to the idea of the circles and bring actually the symbol, the very common Indigenous symbol of the spiral, in which we keep coming back to a similar place, but somehow-

Bayo Akomolafe Something shifted.

Yuria Celidwen Things have shifted, things have moved and continues to be transformed depending on what our insights and our behaviors are. And another thing that I really want to mention, today in the Maya Calendar is the day wu ximi and wu ximi translates to, "Seven, Death-Rebirth." And so the power of that is that ximi, which is the death rebirth, it's the process of composting. There is a moment in which in order to change, we need to let go. We need to surrender. We've been building upon that idea.

And what are the things that we need to surrender the most at this moment? Are the narratives of who we are, who is it that our identity is, not only as individuals, but who are we as a collective as well? Either country collective, planetary collective, and even beyond that, move or transcend the narrowness of just the human species and see ourselves as part of a planetary collective. That's the idea of ecological belonging that I developed. But that allows us that all those stories that we have been imposed upon us by systems of political and economic divisiveness that we know started with colonial processes that continue consequences to this day.

That we can let go of all of those stories that keep us separated, alienated, not even realizing that we ourselves are nature. We are natural beings, part of this webbing of life. And so how can we then compost those stories? But then with intentional participation, participation that brings all these different voices, all these different origin stories, we can recreate new collective stories of belonging, of kindness, of awe and sacredness that we can then truly build a sense of reverence for the whole of Mother Earth. And that allows us to then die, now let death do the process, but knowing that that composting is to give rise to new forms of life, forms of life that are emerging, that are transitioning for a story of belonging. So that's the rebirth, that's the reemergence, and that's the hope.

Bayo Akomolafe So that becomes cartographical in some sense, not a bus stop, not a terminal point, but a lively vocation. A multi-

Yuria Celidwen Yes. The continuation. Exactly.

Bayo Akomolafe Yes.

Yuria Celidwen The continuation.

Bayo Akomolafe Please go ahead, sister.

Yuria Celidwen So we are not trapped, if anything, perhaps trapped only in stories of impossibility. But I love saying that dreaming is the chrysalis of hope, where time without time is unleashed, when we set ourselves free.

Bayo Akomolafe Thank you, sister. I'm going to hold that in with some great tension with whatever Naomi is about to say.

Naomi Klein Well, I guess I was thinking about this. I love the phrase, "Hope is a carceral thing," because I have often felt that there was almost a kind of, you're ordered to have hope sometimes.

Bayo Akomolafe You're ordered to have hope.

Naomi Klein If you're a public person, there's a sense of, you must perform hope for others. And in my own experience, I used to be somebody who did that a lot. I would go out there and perform hope. And I made myself a promise, as Yuria has been reminding us and as you said in your opening, Bayo, I mean, we are a web, so when we put an energy into it changes it. And so I have been experimenting with shutting up a lot more because I am in that state and I don't want to beat myself up about it, but I also feel a responsibility not to tell other people that they need to come with me there. I will say, it feels I need to not be afraid of them, but that to me is different than being an evangelist, hopelessness. I will not do that. That's where I draw the line. But in terms of what the stuckness is, I think a lot of it is these is these narrative structures that are encoded from the Old Testament, the New Testament, Hollywood action movies that tell us, not necessarily that we're doomed, but that we are going to get saved at the very, very last minute. Not all of us, the chosen ones, just the good ones.

Bayo Akomolafe Probably you two. Definitely not me.

Yuria Celidwen [Laughing] Yes, probably we are not too.

Bayo Akomolafe Definitely not me.

Naomi Klein I think that is that prison too. That story structure. Because I think I'm so much more afraid of cruelty than I am of death, of how we treat one another at when we fall down, what do we do? Do we hold each other or do we fight each other? I mean, what? We kill each other? What do we do when we fall? Is there a way to fall with grace and love and to catch one another? That’s what scares me as we all know, because we're seeing so much evidence of stabbing one another as we fall. And that's such a mythological figure. The image. I love the film, Don't Look Up, by the way. I know it was controversial, but what I loved about it was that it played with the Hollywood trope of, "We're going to get saved at the last minute," and it was just like, "No, we're not. It's going to hit." I just thought that was so bold.

Yuria Celidwen Yeah.

Bayo Akomolafe Well, I like the film too, Don't Look Up. But to use that as a springboard to something else, there is a sense in which we are looking up. There's a posture that comes with white stability, I feel like even hope as presented within modernity is this shiny thing, it's shorn of its prickly edges. But in my tradition, hope is a trickster. There isn't a binary between hope and hopelessness. To hold hope well is to hold hopelessness, is to embrace it, is to know that things may not go out our way. And that is the beauty of this poetic saga that we call reality. But I'm speaking too much.

Yuria Celidwen There's always not enough. [Laughter] But I bring both of your ideas of loss and grief and the push for fleeting hyper-aroused state of hope. And then how that bridges into rituals of meaning, thinking of... it is precisely the not knowing what's going to lead the way to our right action. Those stories of the paternalistic savior that comes in the end and saves the show, those ideas keep us not only disempowered, but keep us also in ignorance. And Sister Naomi was saying, well, what's the fear that is causing these problems?

And in my case, I fear ignorance because that's what keeps us perpetrating systems without knowing that we are part of those problems. So without having a deep reflection, a deep contemplation into which is our part that we continue these old narratives that need to be composted, then things will not change. And, Bayo, brother, you asked, are there other stories? There are so many stories, 7,000 different languages spoken in the world, each of which will have an origin story about who we are and how we got connected. Many of those stories we haven't heard, and we are losing those stories every day.

So how do we create now platforms of belonging of all those different stories in which then we can find meaning? Meaning for new ways of identifying our ourselves stop or letting go of those what keeps us stuck in narratives of isolation or domination or ownership or control. And rather, weaving into narratives of belonging to the earth, of reciprocity, of returning and all of these many other ways that we haven't yet heard.

Bayo Akomolafe  I think we want to speak to that a little more. I would like us to shift the arrangement of our conversation, and I'm trying something new here and I'm going to shift the baton, so to speak around, so we can ask each other questions.

But for now, could we just without tying a bow, just spiral out of this idea that, and I think we need people to hear this. Grieving is not in the way, grieving together, falling apart together might very well be the most ecstatic, the most animated politics in response to these moments that we can master. Because yes, and this is not to belittle that either the world that is producing recycling as a response to climate chaos does not know how to notice that what is supposedly recycled, 93% of that comes to me, to my world, to Nigeria, to India, to Vietnam. And it fosters this pleasure principle, this idea that, "We are the good guys, we're on the right side of history." Is there a trap there? But is there also something to be said about through your experiences and your scholarship and your own dreaming and your own experiences of loss that, "Let's stay with this crack. There is life here"?

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Yuria Celidwen I love of seeing grief as ecstasy. I love of this power, the power of this image. Grief is the state of loss. And loss of some part of our identity that has been severed. Either our worldviews or someone we love or some sense of stability is lost and we grieve. So we find ourselves out of our usual state of self. So it is ecstatic in that sense.

Bayo Akomolafe  Yes-

Yuria Celidwen It pushes us.

Bayo Akomolafe Yes.

Yuria Celidwen It pushes us outside of our current normal state of mind into an in between state, in between, betwixt, a kind of dream-like state in which things can happen. Possibilities can arise that we don't know because we surrender. Because we can rest in that unknowing. And that's the place of possibility, that's the place of potentiality. In so many origin stories that we find in Indigenous traditions, the beginning of the world is a state of potentiality, is a state of soup, cosmic soup in which everything is resting. And little by little some order starts arising. But that place of chaos, again, is a place of potential, is a place pregnant of possibilities and opportunities. But then of course, no pathway is set. Everything can be.

So that's the unknown. But to be there is to let go of knowing, to let go of having the solution, is letting go of the identity, letting go of the narrative, the collective, the individual, and then transitioning into the place of communitas like in ritual processes. And I'm thinking right now of specific funerary rights, for example. You start in a place of loss and grief and you enter in the place between, the place of communitas in which the whole collective helps the griever, the breather into finding meaning of this new identity that is rising, that is yet to be found, yet to be found meaning in.

And then eventually able to return with a new sense of self, a new sense of responsibility, a new sense of place and belonging not only to its own, but to the community when it stands, and then with the larger community of things. So then that grief, as you said, is not in the way, grief is the way to transformation. Is the way that we can let go and then be open to the mystery, be open to spirit, to really flow through. And no matter what, the animating principle of life, which is spirit, will flow through.

Naomi Klein I'm really struck by your description of grief as ecstasy.

Bayo Akomolafe Ecstasy.

Naomi Klein And it just made me think there really is nothing more intimate than grieving with someone and the trust and the surrender of someone really allowing themselves to fall apart because they're trusting you to catch them. They're trusting you. They're trusting that they won't fall into an abyss. And it really made me think, also grief, my own experience of grief and collective grief is that it is a space of regeneration. And this feeling not, I'm sorry to use a fossil fuel metaphor, but that I feel like so many of our social movements are running on empty  because they're feeling isolated. But my question for both of you is something I've been struggling with around... I mentioned I live in a temperate rainforest. These forests are filled with mother trees, these trees that are composting into the earth and are the spaces of most intense life. So it's just very visual in my brain where I walk the dog, I'm surrounded by the power of death as a life forest.

And I take a lot of solace and metaphorical strength from that. But like I said, we had a drought that lasts so long that the forest stopped having that power. And I just feel like it's worth naming that like when we're thinking about the climate crisis and the extinction crisis, and I'm not using the word, "We," because we are not all responsible for it, it wasn't all of our technologies that produced it, and there's so much erasure in that idea. But we are all in it and it has disrupted those cycles of regeneration. So the solace and the stories that tell us that we regenerate, that life comes from death, that's being interrupted. And that's the grief that I find unconsolable.

I think there's so much discourse around how young people are on the front lines of the climate crisis, and of course, they are because they are going to be living with this for longer. But to me, there's nothing sadder than being an elder, being at the end of one's life and knowing and not having the comfort that, yes, I'm leaving, but the systems are bigger than me and they are regenerating. So how do you carry that? These cycles seem to not... this thing called the Anthropocene is, "Mess that up." So when I look at some of... and I know this wonderful, the oceanographer who spent his life studying the Great Barrier Reef, and he's at the end of his life and I see in him this inability to just pass the baton and know that the cycle's going to continue because it's not.

Yuria Celidwen I would bring us back, Brother Bayo started our conversation today inviting us to a place of shared vulnerability. And I think that place of unknowing is where vulnerability dwells, not knowing really what will happen. There is a process called the naikiya from, naiky is like a corpse, and it is the journey through the underworld or the land of the dead. And that also is present in origin stories or traditions all over the world, in which there is that ritual process of losing the whole world, the whole identity and finding oneself in a place of total vulnerability.

We are right now in a global naikiya which we don't know and not knowing is the moment where we really find ourselves in the possibility of coming together for solutions because there will be no savior in the end. There will be no usually paternal figure, no. We don't know. And unless we realize that, that deep vulnerability, actions will not start happening and the right action will not start happening. I cringe a little bit with the idea of the Anthropocene because we need to name the whiteness of that term.

Bayo Akomolafe Yuria, I missed that. We need to name the, did you say whiteness of the term?

Yuria Celidwen The whiteness. Yeah, the whiteness of the Anthropocene because it's not about humanity being in Mother Earth. That has happened for millennia with quite good balance. It's rather the colonial imposition of control, ownership, transaction that has created this abuse towards each other and Mother Earth. So that part is what needs to be really deeply acknowledged, deeply reckoned with, and then moving to those reparations that need to happen, so the solutions then start happening. Before that, we will just continue with the same all, same all, same all you said it, Sister Naomi, yes, not everybody has... we know very well that the whole global south has not been responsible of the situation of the world, but we now know as well that the move towards mimicking Western lifestyles continues this solution.

So we need to start shifting those stories. We need to start moving beyond that. And even also the realization, speaking now of the conservation movements, the green economies that are taking then again the personality of the Western individualists ideologies. That is only banking systems that are being benefited by carbon offsetting and that Indigenous peoples are being removed from their lands in the name of conservation, in the name of protecting areas. And now we are not having access to our lifestyle systems in our lands. So all of those issues need to be acknowledged and put really in the front so that solutions that really benefit the whole Mother Earth start happening. Otherwise we continue with being that stuck in those narratives, rationalizing that in the name of, then we can continue the abuse.

Bayo Akomolafe Thank you, sister. I think the way I respond to that question, dear Sister Naomi, is I think of whiteness as this planet terraforming principle. It's the flattening of the wilds. It's the clearing that seeks to dismiss the agency, the deep intelligence, the wild and promiscuous, embodied grounding forces around us. And to reduce all of that to the individual, the myth of the individual, of the story of the separate self. Whiteness is not white people. Whiteness is not white identified bodies. Whiteness captured white identified body just as much as it has captured people that look like me. So whiteness is this thing that is spreading around the planet. And in that sense, we are participating, even the Global South in this climate weathering. We've become the weathering bodies, the resource base for this machine that is flattening everything.

So of course, I think we already know that climate isn't just the weather, it's how we think. It's how we name ourselves, it's how we perform technology, it's how we travel, it's how we eat, it's how we make love, it's how we tell stories, it's all of this. And I think the invitation, the wisdom of chaos, I'm using those story elements, Yuria, that you've invited in. The invitation is to shapeshift, in the words of Gatari, is to, "Stand up and leave the couch," the psychotherapist's or the psychoanalyst's couch behind that is preserving our individuality and coddling our minds into thinking that we are separate from the world we're trying to fix. 

This feels like the loss of white stability for me. It seems like we're storing this loss of stability. We just don't have the way to ritualize this loss. But there are lots of, from my vantage point, African elders and Indigenous cosmological stories and accounts that follow the slaves and told the stories of capture. It seems like what you're inviting us to talk about, Naomi, is capture. We are, we're the ships, the slave ships are pulled close to Africa, are now pulling close to the world, to the shores of the entire world. And we've reached a point of no return.

So we need to listen to people like Earl Lovelace, or C.L.R. James, or Hortace Philips, or Fred Moten who say maybe speaking truth to power is not the issue here. Maybe even our struggle is part of the structure we're trying to upend. Maybe we need fugitive ways of addressing this crisis. And maybe grief is that ecstatic fugitivity that we're speaking about. Grief as art, grief as aesthetics, grief as vocation is not a question of safety for ourselves as much as it is a making sanctuary for this thing, this transformative agent that has come to us, namely, grief. Yeah, I think I'll stop there.

But how about we do this. And the questions coming in now, this isn't exactly framed as a context for responding to questions. The aesthetic isn't one of "Ah, I get it now. Now I understand," because as Naomi said in the beginning, more data isn't the problem. More and more and more information doesn't seem to be working. So this isn't about getting it. This isn't about amending your CV to say you attended this conversation between the three of us.

This is really about sensorial encounters, even Confucian can be a blessing here. But let's do this. Let's experiment with this. To start things off, there are questions coming in. I will read it out. There are no guarantees of answers, everyone listening, no answers here. Just responses, just gestures. And if you feel called to respond to it, Naomi, Yuria, then please do.

 Let me take one is, "How do we prepare for the chaos? I resonate with Naomi's fear of cruelty. We must make community in our places to traverse and build anew.” So how do we prepare for the chaos?

Yuria Celidwen So the reason why, the beauty of vulnerability that brings us into the real embodied need of others. Like, oh, I don't know. We don't know. So then we come together. In those moments of deep vulnerability, shared vulnerability, we realize we're actually much closer than we imagined. So let yourself be in the chaos, embrace the chaos, and embrace it as a place of possibility, as a place of unknowing, where life can emerge.

Bayo Akomolafe Yuria, come on, give us a little handle somewhere. So you're saying there's no certainty, nothing to hold within the chaos? Nothing?

Yuria Celidwen [Laughing] We can hold into life herself, into spirit herself, which is what's animating the right action. That's why we need that moment of reflection and contemplation to really understand. We see life, the whole of cycles of nature that are talking about that process, that process of resting, that process of emerging, that process of blooming. And then calming and wilting and passing. The huge network you were saying, Bayo, in the beginning, the mycelial network that connects all around, the cosmic networks that connect us. So holding onto that, but perhaps also we need to let go of the holding itself, needing to let go of hope itself and allow us to really sense, really embody, let it feel through the body, the process of grief. Because that's where the transformation will happen.

Bayo Akomolafe Thank you so very much, sister. Thank you. Naomi.

Naomi Klein  Yeah, I would just add that letting go of hope is not the same as letting go of love. And that in these moments of chaos, you saying prepare for the chaos. There's chaos everywhere, all over the place. And it's unevenly distributed. And what we know from disasters, these staccato events when any ability to deny, ignore, is upended by a wildfire, a hurricane, a heat dump. Love, community, connection, saves lives again and again and again. So coming back to what I was saying earlier, how do we fall? Do we fall holding each other or stabbing each other? How do we use the falling as an opportunity to, as you said in the question, how do we build community? I mean, that's absolutely. And to be a boring Leftist, [laughter] and I also think we need to invest in non-market housing and public healthcare and food for all, because these things make it less likely that we turn on each other because we have less of a feeling of scarcity.

Yuria Celidwen Yeah. Yeah. I really love how then love is entering into our conversation.

Bayo Akomolafe Thank you so much, Naomi. And adding the Leftist part too was a chef's kiss. There's a question, and I think it's a beautiful way to come to a plateau, it’s “How do we deal with feelings of isolation that arise from living in a world/society, I live in the UK," says this person, "that can feel majoritively in the dark about where we are with the climate emergency?"

And my partial response to that is that the philosophies, the feminisms, the Indigenous ideas that nourish my work, there are always openings and cracks. Yuria said something about the spiral that produces molecular differences. There are always little glimpses of novelty that might be pathological to modernity. My instigation is, follow those feelings, follow those desires to where they might lead and experiment around. I'm kind of tired with light metaphors. Eh, ‘light comes in through the crack.’

Endarkenment is what we're doing now, not enlightenment. It's where the lonely soil comes in. So where that leads, the crack is the invitation to lose our way. That's my partial response there. There's other things I could say, but I wanted you both to speak to that. And maybe this is how we wrap things up. If there's no space for one more question.

Naomi Klein Well, I'll go so that Yuria, I can close us out because I have faith in you.

Bayo Akomolafe We all do in, faith in Yuria.

Naomi Klein Yeah. So I was struck by the part of the question that talked about, yes, being in the UK and feeling that people are in the dark about the climate crisis. I often hear this sort of, "What do we do about the people who don't care? What do we do about the people who are indifferent?" And I think I would just say don't buy it. I don't believe it is possible to not know, to not care about the scale of loss that we're talking about, it helps to not come at it from a space of I need to make you care about something, and think about it more in the sense of how do we open up space to know what we already know.

And if you're attached to a certain story and suddenly there's an event without a story for it, you're putty in the hands of tyrants who want to stick a really dangerous story in your head. And I think we can all think of examples like that. So this process of weaving different kinds of stories, resurfacing stories that colonialism and capitalism and whiteness attempted to exterminate, that's disaster preparation. That's more important than stockpiling toilet paper. That's really, really important for the shocks to come. Yeah. And just want to say thank you for the conversation with you again.

Bayo Akomolafe Sister Yuria?

Yuria Celidwen  The crack that you were talking about. Yes. Let's now invite the possibilities of darkness, that chaos, that unknowing, thinking of crack that enters into the depths of Mother Earth to find that well of medicine, that well of life. And also the crack that also symbolizes the beginning of rupture of what we now know, of the systems that we know.

So rather than recurring to fundamentals ideas, or stories, then we refer to participatory, intentional stories and collective stories. Which is why it's so important to be acknowledging, reckoning and repairing the current identities so that we don't keep perpetrating them. So we just not allow anything to happen. No. Rather, we feel empowered to intentionally create the stories of belonging that we're looking for, using that crack as the entering or the coming out of what possibilities are. And I also feel profoundly grateful for this time together, so generative and that us to really welcome what we don't know and our not having the solutions yet, allowing the questions without the answers.

Bayo Akomolafe Thank you so much, sisters. It's just appropriate that we started with grief and somewhere along the line it became gratitude. And that's really holding grief well, I think. [laughter] Thank you. Thank you both, Naomi, Yuria, for holding this space with us and for everyone who has been listening. Clock time says it's about time to stop, but African time says, "Nah. No. That's not how to think about time.” Time is always beginning. Just because clock time says it ends here, doesn't mean the inquiry doesn't continue. And this is just to let you know that you're not alone, that we are in this planetary conversation together. Let it spill. Take it to a party, take it to your community, to your neighborhood. Let's have these conversations and let them change us so that we might become different. All right, we'll see you in your dreams. Naomi will show up first and then Yuria but probably not me. We'll see you soon. Thank you so very much for being with us. Yeah, thank you.

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Jose Alejandro Rivera Thank you for listening to this episode of For The Wild.  The music you heard today was by Sitka Sun, graciously provided by the Long Road Society record label. For The Wild is created by Ayana Young, Erica Ekrem, Julia Jackson, Jackson Kroopf, Evan Tenenbaum, and Jose Alejandro Rivera.